livedndy2 weeks ago · www.livedndy.com
Hi guys. In light of #TransfermationTuesday I'm inspired to share. 2 weeks ago today I said goodbye to the most important person in my life. My mother❤. And without a doubt my world was changed forever. But despite the emotional lows, I realize that her spirit survives in me and i will continue living for the both of us💪. As life happens remember that we do not take this walk called #Life alone👣. Guided by #faith and not by fear you will find strength beyond measure and comfort in your darkest hour. 💋 #corenthians 12 #livedndy #goodvibes #EMBRACEtheJOURNEY #naturalhairrocks #redheads #Brooklyn #NYC #shameless #duality #fav #natural #4Cnatural #beautyblogger #curlygirls #teamnatural #ambition #believe
Sharing this post via instagram so soon after my mothers passing was probably the most uncomfortable and transparent moment that I have ever experienced. Just months before I had lost my farther and I had not posted anything about it. But with these losses combined I wholeheartedly believed the magnitude of the lessons learned in those two short weeks (or combined four short months) had to be shared. Like most, I too thought I had those dreaded moments figured out. I thought I knew how I would feel and how I would react. I assumed that sadness would over take me and some unimaginable amount of unbearable pain would destroy the foundation of fortitude in the woman that I, and everyone who loves me, had been busy constructing all of these years.
When the inevitable approached and it was time to say goodbye I found that I did not crumble, give up or come completely undone. All I did was pray. I prayed for peace, strength and understanding, not only for myself but for my family as well. The more time I spent talking to God the more peace I found.
For me, loss equaled change and change equaled growth. Though, I would have never asked to learn this lesson in this manner I am forever grateful. Grateful for my praying mother and father who instilled in me the power of prayer. And lets be clear, I did not grow up in bible study or singing in the children's choir lol but when my faith was tested the foundation ever present and for that I am thankful.
I could say that I don't know how I made it through something so tragic, but that would be a lie. And by no means do I want to paint the illusion that its was easy because it wasn't. But faith guided, protected and comforted me. Throughout those two weeks I learned so much about myself, so much about my strength, and even more about my faith. Everything had changed. My world had changed. I realized that once I stopped wallowing in fear and embraced faith, all would be well. I would find understanding beyond measure and the strength to make peace with what I could not understand.
Throughout life we will all be tested and with each test hopefully we learn something more about ourselves and about the realm in which we live and think. With hardship and adversity comes change. And within change there is growth. However you choose to cope, take note of the lessons learned, give thanks along the way, and remember that you are stronger than you could ever imagine. #livedndy